Drama

Haven’t really written here in a while. Don’t know when/if you check. Was disturbed a little by your text message tonight. Hope you are okay and not too emotional, but you tend to get that way this time of the summer. Was also worried that you assumed that my wanting to talk to you would likely be the introduction of new drama into your life. I guess I have caused lots of drama for you in the past, but I would say that is not the case for the last couple of years most of the time. If that indeed is how you view me, then you don’t really need that in your life. I will not contact you until I hear from you that it is okay. Not mad or really sad or anything really, just don’t want to be a Jenny to you if that’s what I am. Of course, you may not think of me like that at all, which, if true, makes this whole paragraph moot.
I have been dealing with a little health scare this weekend that I believe will be a simple thing and thus I am not thinking the worst. I awoke on Friday with a sore collar bone and when investigating I found a lump on my collar bone. Apparently it is in the area where we have one lymph node. I think it is a swollen lymph node which could be caused by lots of different things. You can imagine what the worst is but I believe mine is likely to be related to an insect bite and consequent skin infection I have right now that is within 2 inches of the node. Either way I am going to the doctor tomorrow or Tuesday to get it checked out.
Did a bit of internet-assisted panic and crying on Friday and Saturday. Wanted to curl up and die. Wanted to be taken care of by someone, but eventually realized I had to do it myself. Then I did some internet-assisted recovery and consoling. It was a scary process but one that I am better for having gone through. Whatever it turns out to be, I know I can deal with now.
Hope things start looking up for you.