Impossible

It’s possible for me to be attracted to others, to feel a sexual impulse, to even like them as a personality, but I find it impossible to really feel a true intimacy with anyone, and I don’t seem to desire it with anyone other than you. It’s not hard to go through the motions for a little while, but eventually it starts to seem hollow, I feel trapped and don’t know how to get out. Perhaps this is how you felt that last year with me. I just feel that I didn’t do something right with the only person I seem to want to do it right with, and I finally feel like I am capable. I have to figure a way into relief soon. I am not getting any younger but the dreams are getting more vivid and they bring me to a different, new longing.
Bryan