You are organic to me, so much like earth and water and air – good stuff, like those things at the Grand Canyon perhaps, or Macchu Picchu, where I imagine awe-inspired peace. To be around you like last night is to find so much comfort. It has always been that way, from the beginning, even the times when it may not have been like it. Those times I was a boy on a playground having issues with the strength of my feelings. I apologize again.
If you would have asked me in October would we be able to spend time like we do now in July, I would have completely dismissed any such speculation. This is still like a dream to me, like you are at times, like the Grand Canyon can only be to me right now as well. I honestly thought that this could never be. That we would drift further and further from each other until we were just specks on the horizon of our pasts. I am glad the sea changed and brought us back closer, and into better focus.
My aching heart has not fully mended. Sometimes I feel like there is only one thing that can make that happen. But I have joy. Joy in the fact that I have attacked my problems and gotten most of them under control, and joy in the fact that when I returned with these repairs that you were willing to let me back in. Even though it is not completely what I want, I am so happy for us to get to spend time together the way we do now. There is not another you out there, I have realized that now. I hope you will try again with me. I hope you will give us that chance again. I will keep my panic in check.
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