Godammit

Hollywood star, Gillian Anderson, plays an FBI agent on TV.

Paraphrase of Josh Joplin quoting Phil Ochs:

At times like these, sometimes the most revolutionary act can be to turn our backs and attempt to create something beautiful

I’ve been through all of this with you before. I am tired of the pessimism. My mother was the queen of ruined holidays. My father the king of mellow. Eat your goddamn chocolate. Have your Christmas crackers and pudding. Play God Save the Queen at top volume on the hi-fi and pretend that your country is still the steward of the language. Godammit I am going to enjoy the holiday this year, come hell or high water.

I would steal your keys at a bar, you kindly spoken pansy boy, and run as fast as I could into the streets of that town. I’d take the hell, and highwater, the fifths of bourbon on the way, and a couple of chocolates just for myself. I’d run in and out of movie theaters like I was Bruce Willis, you asshole. And I really am. You may not recognize me, but you have seen my movies….

But alas, tonight, for once, I have faith in the world. It came in the singing of Closer to Fine, a song I thought I had given up some 10 years ago. A taburnacular resonating of sweet chords that were familiar and strong and strange. All bosses gone, and a night of semi-abandon. And all I can say is I love you all.

War on Iraq be damned, and why do we always send our boys in during the holidays. I imagine my unborn child asking me, how can it be Christmas, some delightful day, when a forward deployment is not underway in December. Please, make my cost per gallon $4.84 if it will save a life, Mr. President. And I will stop tomorrow helping to sign youngins up for the ‘war effort’. Please take my name off of your list, and your list too. I have nothing I need to buy, or sell, or advertise anymore… kickboxing is not an option.

Anyway, I have faith, and there is beauty, and there is John Lennon, alive or dead, so I will give something back to your country, and a couple of more things. Happy Christmas, war is over, or imminent as we like to say. I’d like to make it very clear that I want to have zero part.

As FBI file is expanding, I should probably stop writing here. Peace.